Recycled Comment

Here's the comment I left on Sarah's blog that I thought I just might put here as a morning post. I'd like to see where it gets me today.

To sum up Sarah's post, she is feeling "average." Routine seems to be our life right now. It's work during the day, and at night we clean up the apartment, talk to the dogs, eat dinner, watch a little TV, talk a bit, read/play on the computer, and then it's bed time.

I'm sort of saddened by your post about being average because I'd like to think our life together is above average. I do agree with you, however, that I think we are definitely in a mode of captivity keeping our weeknights lame, and there's no way to tell one week from the other because it's all the same. I battle the Mon/Tue day off wars where I do nothing. My days off seem to have lost meaning. While it's good to nothing once in a while, it seems that's all I ever do. I've been wanting to accomplish so much, yet I accomplish so little. I want to lose weight, instead I'm gaining weight. I want to find a focus for my career, instead I'm losing focus. I need a challenge, and above all, I need to accomplish something. I need to finish a book, lose weight, center my thoughts and strive for wholeness instead of halfness. What gets a person to that point? What is it that I can do TODAY that will make life more focused, meaningful, and less dull? How do I begin to make a difference in my life, and of my wife's life? Certainly, the answer right now is not having children. Certainly, the answer right now is unclear.